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That Thorn....Will it Leave

Date: Sometime in 2010

Dear Journal,

As I sit here on the porch, sipping on some awesome juice,
I attempt to hold it together before I blow a fuse.
I have a problem, a habit, an addiction that won't go away.
Sometimes I feel like brother Paul on display.
He described it as a thorn in his flesh, so he would pray.
I have a thorn in my flesh.
I love the feeling that this thorn tends to give my flesh.
It drives me and it makes me who I am, the only thing is
It's killing me.
What do I do?  I've prayed and prayed, but still to no avail.
I've gone to the elders of the church and they only snear at me.
They can't and won't try to understand it because they fear it.
What do I do? I can't help because I love this thorn.
It's been a part of my life for a long time.
I asked God for grace, but it always presents itself.
Don't get me wrong, I still believe, but I need something done.
Is it too late for me to atone?
I'm wondering will that thorn ever leave?