Showing posts from October 28, 2012

Deborah Bond - See You In My Dreams

Deborah Bond is a one of a kind artist. The New Haven, Connecticut singer has a mix of elements that will remind you of Sadé and Anita Baker. I happened to see her video to "See You In My Dreams." It is an awesome song. I love it. Get into it below.

Carmen Carrera "What Would You Do?"

Many of you all remember Carmen Carrera from RuPaul's Drag Race on the Logo Network.  Well Carmen Carrera has since announced her transitioning to a full fledged woman.  I applaud Carmen for living life the way that pleases her.     In a recent video on ABC's "What Would You Do?" Carmen takes part in a diner scene in which a customer despises Transgender people. Get into the video below.

I've Found It

I've been doing some soul searching here recently and I've found the Key.  I've found the answer.  The answer and the key is letting go.
  Many of you know of my struggle with being in the church and the abuse that I've endured mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.  Well, although I've left the situation, some things have managed to still have a hold on me. One thing in particular is self doubt.
  Since I've come into being, I still have an issue with self doubt.  I have doubts about myself and I base myself on others' opinions and pleasing others. NO MORE!!! I've decided its time to let go of the pain and past.
  Although I'm seeking my freedom, I realize that it is a process due to the fact that a seed was planted for 5 years.  To think that for five years I hated myself, because someone hated the fact that I embraced who I was and they couldn't embrace themselves. I'm learning to love myself and move on with my life.  Its going to …

What Does Sexuality Suppose to Look Like? (Repost)

Over the last few days, I've seen a lot about fashion, especially as it relates to sexuality.  I've seen guys from all walks of life: Black, White, Hispanic, gay, straight, religious, non-religious, hipster, emo, thug, non thug, wear skinny jeans.  I own a pair of skinny jeans. I rarely wear them because I'm super skinny and they make me look like I've starved myself to fit in a pair of jeans that are 3 sizes too small.
  However, over the weekend some bigot posted on facebook that skinny jeans make men look "gay."  Not only that I remember a few years ago when guys started wearing pink, they were labeled as soft or gay. In the back of my mind I'm thinking "it's just a piece of clothing and a color." However, the whole argument over something you were showing your sexuality is plain out stupid.  What is Gay suppose to look like and what is Straight suppose to look like?
  Is gay suppose to look like a man prancing around in a dress and ti…

Learn from the Past


I Made It

Well I made it another Week PRAISE GOD!!! This week has had its challenges, but I managed to survive.

Decision, Decisions, Decisions (Repost)

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

Which way do I turn? Where shall I go?

If I go this way, Sis. Lightbulb will have something to say.

If I go that way, Brother Watermelon will say God's wrath is upon me.

Should I stay or should I go?

If I stay, I will continue to struggle.

If I go, then they will miss out as well.

The partnership will end and I may be to blame.

What is the best option? What is the best decision?

I don't know what to do. Either way I go, someone will be upset and miffed at me.

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions.

I'm trying to decide what's best for all parties involved, but I can't.

I'm trying to stand still and see the salvation, but I can't get rid of this big annoying bug in front of me.

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions.

Whatever I decide, everyone won't be pleased, but I need to make things better for me.

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions.

What to do? One decision seems right, but the other seems to be the wisest.

God what do I do?


It's Funny (Repost)

You know it's funny at how people will see you on a venture in a business, ministry, relationship, or something major in your life, but they do not support you.  The main people who have a problem supporting you could possibly be family.  It can be hurtful and devastating.  However, its will only be that hurtful only if you let it.
  That's a lesson that I'm having to learn right now in my life.  At the age of 20 something, (a lady never tells her age lol) I am having to go through hell for some decisions that I've made.  Not only do I not have the support of my family, but people that I've grown up around and those who have watched me grow up, well even some of them don't even support me or celebrate me in a venture with ministry that I am doing.   Its true what Jesus said "A prophet is not without honor except in his own home." I am finding that to be true.
  I guess its true because the people and my family know or think they know the ups and d…

You're Just Pushing Me (Repost)

One thing that I've never understood in life is the reason why some people feel that if they don't help you or if they kick you while your down that you won't get back up.  That's one thing that is the hardest for me to fathom.  I've learned that sometimes you when getting back up, you'll have to do it with God and yourself.
  The reason why I say "God and Yourself" is because now days, people will let you the crap down!!! Right now I'm facing a little slump.  My car broke down on Mommy Day and people that I thought cared really gave me their butt to kiss. I ain't gonna lie, it hurt, but I refuse to let that bother me.
  I'm just going to simply allow it to push me to do what I have to do to show those who dissed me after I've sacrificed for them, that I can make it without you and that you're just pushing me to my destiny.  Whenever people walk away at your time of need, that only shows that they are leaches and leaches we can…

October 2009: A Powerful Month

As this month ends for 2012, My mind goes back to 3 years ago, 2009.  I was a college graduate living in Rock Hill, SC.  During that time, my cousin P-Nut had passed and it had began to be a turbulent month.  I had also began dating a nice gentleman and I had began to accept my own sexuality, despite what so called Christians around me had me thinking.  I was forced to dress a certain way, act a certain way, just so I wouldn't be prophesied that I was going to hell or dying of some sort of disease. That's another story for another day.
  In this month, I had just began a new job and I was working two jobs and I had began to come out of a financial rut.  However, that grace period was to be short lived.  I had to end up quitting the lesser paying job and stick with my better job, however I was being used by Church people and I was being abused mentally, spiritually, and emotionally.
  It was at that point to where I stopped caring about what religious buttholes had to say an…

The Black Community: Why Be So Hard? (Repost)

Why is it that the Black Community is its own worst enemy?  Why is it the often time members of the Black Community are hard on themselves?
  These are two questions that I've always wondered since I've come into the acceptance of me.  For some reason, really since high school, I noticed that for some reason I never had that many Black friends because I am "too white." Also because of the fact that I really wasn't "hood" and the fact that I lived a sheltered life, many Black people often called me a "prep," "white boy,"and my personal favorite "sissy." I got called a lot of names.
  For me, I was very academic and musical, so sports was not a major part of my life. As a Black man, I was often told that I wouldn't be "tough." However, I've grown up to be a tough man. A tough man who is Black and loves life in all its rainbow colored facets.  However, with the Black Community, I've noticed that the &q…

The Man behind The Mask (repost)

It's morning time,
Time to put on my mask.
The mask that protects me from hurt and harm.
I walk down the street a man of integrity and a man of strength.
Behind the mask are fears, abuse, and violations untold.
Behind the mask is a storm waiting to be released upon the world.
As the day progresses the heat bares down and the mask is unbearable.
I don't want to take it off.

My skin begins to chaff, but I wear the mask.
All of a sudden I feel a peeling.
Tears, Anger, Pain, Joy, Relief have shone through.
The man behind the mask has grown and the storm has finally been released.
The storm as wreaked havoc over the city, but it has not destroyed anything or anyone.
The man behind the mask has been freed.
The mask burned.

Hurricane, Sandy. Survival and Prayer

It's Tuesday and I'm watching the news and seeing all of the destruction and all the chaos that Hurricane Sandy has brought forth.  My heart really goes out to those who have lost people, homes, jobs, and have really been affected by this natural disaster.  It has really brought me to tears.
  I was sitting here watching the news and different interviews. People were coming together and helping each other, even though they had lost everything that they had.  I'm thinking "WOW. That's a great sense of community."  It made me smile, that even through tragedy, people were still selfless and willing to help those who had experienced loss.  That's some good Christian values right there.
  Although I haven't been affected directly by Sandy, I feel the sting right along with those who are dealing with the affects of Hurricane Sandy.  My heart really goes out to them.
  That made me think not just about the physical storm, but what about the physical storm…


VICKIE WINANS is one of my favorite Gospel Singers. She has brought us such hits as "Give It One More Try," "We Shall Behold Him," "Long As I Got King Jesus," and more recently "How I Got Over." Here is here hit "Victory" from her 2nd Album "Total Victory."

@findingmetruth Finding Me the Series: The Minisodes "The End"

Many of you all are familiar with the movie series of Finding Me and Finding Me: Truth.  This year the movie series spun off into a web series entitled "Finding Me the Series."  The series chronicles the lives of "Faybien," "Reggie," "Omar" and host of other characters months after the events of the movie.
  In the tenth installment of the series, we examine "Omar" (rapper Bry'Nt) the hard core thug and his issues and the scorned "Reggie"(singer Eric Joppy) who is Greg's ex.  They are dealing with the hurt and some deep secrets that have plagued them until now.  They decide to finally get help for their issues.
  There may be an ending for some things concerning Reggie and Omar, but for one relationship, there is a beginning that will hurt and rip some hearts apart. Get into "The End" from the "Finding Me: Series," below.


Meet Ms. LoQuaisha Morae Chardonnay Johnson from The Bradley Show.  She is a trash talking, hood girl, Christian diva.  Get into the comic antics of LoQuaisha as she discusses the Thirsty and Desperate syndrome.

Dorinda Clark Cole - God Will Take Care of You

Many of you know that I am a big fan of Dorinda Clark-Cole, aka the Jazzy Clark Sister.  Her recent album "I Survived," has been a hit in my book. I've been playing that album since I purchased it (notice I said PURCHASE!!!!!!) One of my favorite songs on the album is "God Will Take Care of You." Check it out below,