Late Night: HIV, Friends, and Life
The last few months have been a challenge. With me finding out that I'm HIV positive, I've had some mental struggles. I felt as if I would lose friendships. So far I've seen that my friends around me are true friends indeed. The main challenge is that I've only told my mom within my immediate family. Its a different experience for me. Knowing that I could be on meds for the rest of my life scare me, but I'm thankful to have that support system.
Even in the dating scene, I've ran into some donkey's butts, but I've ran into guys who are really educated on HIV and AIDS. You have some guys that feel if they even look at an HIV positive man that he's automatically got it. Please come out of the dark ages people. Even people who are somewhat educated even feel that you have to use Lysol of someone who is HIV positive touches something. When will we let the stigma's go!!! I had someone tell me that since I'm HIV positive, I have to wash my dishes with bleach. Well that's not what I was told. I wonder where the hell that came from!!!!
I'm living healthy and I'm free from man's opinion. HIV is just a light affliction. Just like with anything else in life, I trust God to bring me through it. God can and will do anything but fail. I guess with church people, HIV is a curse, but I still yet trust God. I understand that He has a better plan. Well I guess that's all,