Unsatisfied

  Feelings, Feelings, Feelings!!!
  I hate days like this when I get caught up in my feelings. For some reason the last 24 hours haven't been "happy time" for me.  I'm feeling frustrated and agitated.  It basically a feeling of unsatisfaction.  I'm going for my dreams and I'm going for my goals, but nothing seems to work out the way I want them to. I'm beginning to dislike my surroundings. I'm waiting to exhale, but I feel as if I'm about to burst.
  Not to mention that it seems like I'm always in a prison.  One issue is that I'm single and everyone around me seem to be getting into relationships and I'm stuck in "single mode." I ain't gonna lie, I'm doing me and accomplishing things, but I would like someone to share it with. Is that too much to ask? I'm just unsatisfied with where I'm at. No matter how hard I try to change it, it seems unchangeable. 
  I've prayed and I've prayed and I refuse to cry. Maybe I'm trying to hard and focusing to hard on what I don't have and where I can't seem to get to. Why? It's just annoying.  I just feel like I have a hole in me. I feel empty. I'm trying to make sense of it all, but I can't seem to do so. It's like I'm not longer happy with where I am currently in my life.
  I pray and hope that I'm not depressed or going crazy.  That's the last thing I need right now.  I honestly feel that a change of scenery is necessary and needed right now.  Where would I go? I don't even have time for myself anymore!!! When I do try to take time for myself it makes everyone else mad and I get reprimanded saying that I'm selfish....Didn't Jesus take time to himself?
  Can I for once be happy and not feel like a total piece of crap?
Dang, I'm unsatisfied!!!

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