Living with HIV: One Year Later


  It's amazing how fast a year goes by.  Today my mind goes back to the day that I found out that I was HIV positive.  I'll never forget it.
  It was the week after Thanksgiving 2012. I had been preparing myself and clearing my schedule to go for a routine HIV/AIDS test.  I also chose to get tested for other Sexual Transmitted Infections/Diseases as well. I had called a local department that offered free testing and got my appointment.  
 Previous results which was in June 2012 read negative, so I felt pretty confident that this test would be negative as well.  The test provider went through a quiz with me and also an educational session which is quite normal and apart of the testing center's routine when providing an HIV/AIDS test.  
  Then came the hurdle...The Test!!! I took the test via the OraQuick oral HIV test.  We waited for about twenty minutes.  The test provider came to me with a pleasant, yet concerned attitude. She stated, "Musique, your test came back positive."
  I was at a loss for words.  All I could was pray within myself.  I was surprisingly calm.  
  The testing instructor talked with me making sure that I wasn't suicidal or homicidal and making sure that I was okay.  My reply was "I just want to go home and eat the leftovers from last night." 
  However, once I got home, I called my Godmother and Best friend, Senor Paco.  I told them my plight and I began to apologize.  They both asked "What are you apologizing for."
  I felt that I had let myself down and everyone around me. Months later I told my mother and father. Thanks be to God I have their support and unchanging love. However, Mother dearest loves throwing up the fact that I am a homosexual and that God is punishing me. That's another story for another day.
  Through these 365 days, living with HIV has had its ups and downs. I've been rejected in the dating scene, I've battled depression due to the stigmas and ignorance of living in the South and trying to have a boo. However, I am proud to say that I am undetectable and on a medicinal regimen.  Staying on top of your health is important and keeping up with your medication schedule is important. Seeking treatment and STAYING IN TREATMENT IS VITAL AS WELL!!!!
  Know your status and Get tested. If you are positive get treatment, protect yourself, and others. If I can make it, then you can too. 
Love ya,
Musique

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