What to Write: Single Life and Holidays

  Well, It's been a hectic, yet fun few days for me. Thanksgiving was great and the weekend was fun. Here I am trying to figure out what to write.  So many thoughts come to my mind. So many flashes and so many ideas.  Especially with the holidays approaching and with me moving next year, I'm trying to relax and not stress.
  I could also write about how, This holiday is different for me because it will be my first in 3 years that I've not lived at home with my family.  It's different being an adult.  I always dreamed that I would be able to buy everyone presents, but however reality is showing me that with the bills that I have I'm sort of limited, but I'm okay with that. As long as I'm with family and have a great meal I'm okay.
  I could also write about how I'm trying to pretend that I'm okay with being single, but I really do hope that I one day find that perfect mate. This past weekend my friends berated me on how I am afraid of relationship.  I told them that I hadn't been on an actual date in such a long time because I haven't had the time. Much to my chagrin, they told me that I do have time, but that I don't make time to avoid getting to know someone.
  Sadly to say, they are right. I've avoided dating due to me being a feminine Black Gay man in the South,  HIV Positive, and a Christian leader. Yeah sounds crazy doesn't it. However, I've ran into some guys who've taken an interest, but I'm not sure I'm ready for that step especially with Destination DMV being on deck.  I don't want to start something here and have to relocate not to mention that it may complicate things.
So I guess my fear of relationship is justified. I have so much that I'm planning to do that I don't want to pull someone else down into my plans especially when they are already established. It's neither here nor there.
I know I'll find that right mate for me someday. Let's hope it is before I'm 30. LOL Well I guess I did find something to write about,