Finding Me: Let Me Be Me

 Many of you know my coming out story and my struggle concerning family and being who I am.  Well, I must say each day I live, I find out a new area about myself.  Here lately I've been getting in touch which another side of me. I've found out that I am very androgynous. I love switching it up a bit and dressing to what feels comfortable.
  Now society says "Yannick, you're a man so dress and act like it," but I say I am me, let me be me and let me find out what works and doesn't work without you telling me.  The picture above is me shortly after I won grand prize at a recent ball. You can tell that I have on make up and eye shadow and I'm dressed very feminine.
  I felt so comfortable being dressed as such.  However there has been issues with religious people, family, and friends. I've been asked "Where is this femme and androgynous side coming from," as if someone has influenced me to be this way. The truth is no one has told me anything. This is something that I'm exploring for myself. It's simply who I am.
  I guess it is shocking some people because I've unfortunately degraded myself to the no fats, no fems phenomena and discrimination that plagues the Gay Community. Many have wondered why it has taken me so long to get in touch with the androgynous side of me. Three Words: Other People's Opinions.
  For so long I've let other people mold me, now it's time for me to mold myself into how I view and see myself.  People can think that I'm living for others, but in reality I'm living for me.  I understand everyone may not like or accept it, but I've got to be happy with who I am.  God made me and He didn't make any mistake.  Another reason why this journey of self discovery took so long was religious propaganda. Although some religions are cool with the gays, there are limits. Right now I refuse to limit myself.  It may cost some friendships, relationships, and close doors, but I declare that there are bigger, better, stronger relationships, friendships, and doors for Yannick. I'm in a period and are of self declaration and exploration.  Everybody doesn't have to like it. They aren't required to like it.
  Just don't try to psychoanalyze me as if I'm mentally out of place. There is nothing mentally wrong with me.  I'm expressing myself and I'm being damn happy about it.  There is nothing to be added or rebranded concerning me. I no longer require acceptance. If people don't like it, oh well.
Live, Love, and Be Free,

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