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Ain't Nothing Wrong With Me

A few months ago, someone told me that they admired how I walk with confidence. I distinctly remember him saying "You walk like you're saying 'here I am, I am confident... I'm the sh...'" I must say, "I am the Ish!!!!."  It amazed me to see that someone else noticed my confidence despite the struggles I've had with my self-esteem over the years.
  I realize that I am wonderfully and fearfully made.  What gets me is that it seems for the last month, I've had certain groups of people tell me that I need to change my mannerisms and stuff and the fact that I'm fun, yet proper and prim, Black Male because they felt uncomfortable and felt that people will perceive me and them a certain way.  I find it funny, because I began to really see their insecurity in themselves.  I've learned that whenever people always hound you about yourself, then they are insecure with themselves.
   Due to the fact, that it is a job situation, I did have to…

The Black Community: Why Be So Hard? (Repost)

Why is it that the Black Community is its own worst enemy?  Why is it the often time members of the Black Community are hard on themselves?
  These are two questions that I've always wondered since I've come into the acceptance of me.  For some reason, really since high school, I noticed that for some reason I never had that many Black friends because I am "too white." Also because of the fact that I really wasn't "hood" and the fact that I lived a sheltered life, many Black people often called me a "prep," "white boy,"and my personal favorite "sissy." I got called a lot of names.
  For me, I was very academic and musical, so sports was not a major part of my life. As a Black man, I was often told that I wouldn't be "tough." However, I've grown up to be a tough man. A tough man who is Black and loves life in all its rainbow colored facets.  However, with the Black Community, I've noticed that the &q…

Rest In Peace Toyota aka Michele (My Car)

The pictures above are of my car the late Toyota Camry, better known as Michele.  On Sunday May 13, 2012 Michele went home to the great junkyard in the sky.  She caught on fire on I-77 in South Carolina as I was going to see my God mom. My best friend J and I were together at the time. I'm just thankful that the car didn't explode. (After Photos Are Posted Below).
  The only damage done was to the engine and the hood.  The parts under the hood burned.  However, we were able to crank the car, but the engine is knocking badly and it has a thrown rod.  I've put over $1500 into that car and I refuse to put anymore into that car.  It is an 1989 model and it's had problems from the jump.  I've had the engine worked on twice.
  Many sources that are close to me are advising me to keep the car and wait till my mechanic recuperates from an operation and let him replace the engine again....I'm sorry, but NO!!!  I refuse to put any more energy into that car. It's ca…

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