Showing posts with the label HIV/AIDS

5 Years Since The Diagnosis

This blog post will find you a couple days before World AIDS Day which is on December 1st, 2017. Although we deal with HIV/AIDS awareness and education and what not on this day, the work does not stop and start on one day. It is an on going thing.   I chose this time to write this blog post, because today marks 5 years since, I found out that I had contracted HIV.  I will never forget that day for as long as I shall live. It was in 2012.   I had went in for my routine testing which was every 3-6 months.  I acknowledged that I was doing some risky sexual behaviors. Mind you I was a former sex worker, amateur porn star, and just living dangerously. I did hard drugs which is a constant struggle, but I'm yet holding on.   I had already had a dream months prior that I would end up positive, but the next day I had taken a test that came back negative, meaning that at that time I was not termed positive or the test was non reactive.  However, a few months later I decided to get tested…

New Episodes Coming to the Black, Trans, & Beautiful Podcast August 28th 2017

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2014 Living with HIV: Motherly Love and The Black Church

It's 2014 and I'm still here by God's grace and his wisdom.  It's been two years since, my diagnosis with HIV. It's been two years since my life began, not stop.   Throughout those two years, I've had ups and downs, I've had love and I've lost love. I've gained friends and I've lost friends.  My biggest test concerning my HIV status, was when it was revealed to people that I deal with in the church.   Now you know that most church people feel that HIV/AIDS is a curse on the homosexual community and those who are sexually adventurous. This myth is so far from the truth.  There are many people in the church, be it unspoken, that are knowingly living with the virus and some are infected and do not know their status.     One of the Mothers of the church that I affectionately call "Momma," asked me what was going on with me one day.  I had just began my medicinal regimine and I really didn't want to talk about it out of fear of being…

Meds, Mother Dearest, and Shame

I have a problem with the Black Community.  Especially when it comes to HIV/AIDS.  I'm speaking from an experience that has pissed me off and just makes me wonder how much more will the Black Community suffer from ignorance and unnecessary shame.   Well, Earlier this week, my monthly shipment of meds came and my Mother/Aunt that raised me kept calling me to come pick up my meds.  I told her to put the package in the mailbox and that I'd pick it up.   About an hour later as I continued cleaning the house and preparing lunch, I get another call from Mother/Aunt that said she wanted me to pick up my package so her husband, which is my stepfather, wouldn't see it and start asking questions.  Mother/Aunt had the ignorant audacity to say "You know, my husband is nosy."   I totally brushed passed my feeling of shame for contracting HIV and went and picked up my package.  It pissed me off because it is something that people living and conquering HIV/AIDS deal with...…

Would You Date Someone Who Is HIV +?

Get Tested, Know Your Status, Get Treatment, and Stay in Treatment. Question of the Day: Would You Date a Person Living with HIV? Why or Why Not?

I am Dirty

Hi, I'm Musique and I'm HIV positive. I always thought it would never happen to be, but I got that vision shattered in 2012.  Although I am HIV Positive, I am a happy, HEALTHY, ambitious person. I'm a musician, blogger, actor, youtube Personality.
  However to some I am "Dirty."  I'm sure that many of you all have seen online dating profiles that says this "no positive dudes. Must be Clean. NO dirty booties. No tainted meat." The list could go on. Those are codes for telling people with HIV that they are not welcomed and that they are "unclean" in the eyes of the HIV Negative LGBT members. These terms are offensive and hurtful, but I refuse to let someone else's ignorance cause me harm or cause myself esteem to be low.
   To those who feel like everyone who his HIV Positive is a whore I have something to say. There are those who contracted it from intravenous drug use (contaminated needles), born with it because their mother had HIV…

Turning 28 and Living

Well many of you know that 14 days ago I turned 28. Don't I make it look good?  I'm so glad that I have made it this far. Again I thank you all for the love that you've shown me and the birthday wishes and gifts!!!!
  Many of you know that recently I was diagnosed as HIV positive. My best friend Senor Paco along with my Bestie Varron encouraged me that this was not my end, but my beginning!!!.
  I'm excited about life at this point because I'm currently undetectable, healthy and living, loving and being free.  Many people think of one being HIV positive of one being sick, and near death. That is not the case. HIV is the virus that, if left untreated, could progress to full blown AIDS.  Many people are positive and do not know it because they don't get tested or they just feel that not knowing is better. Knowing is the best policy for yourself and others.
  It is important to know your status by getting tested and knowing your partners status and being honest…

Thank You!!!

I want to thank you all for the birthday wishes and the love that you've shown me for my big 28th.  It was a great birthday.  I spent it with close friends and made some new ones.
  I also went to a health seminar concerning Black Gay Men and HIV/AIDS. It was very informative and exciting.  Not to mention that I was able to get the heck out of dodge for a couple days. I really needed a weekend away. Well I'm off to enjoy my Sunday.
Love ya,

My Love For Music (the Story) and a Little Treat for You All

Many of you know that I'm a singer, songwriter, musician, and producer. I may have lightly hinted at the story of how I became a music head.  Well, below is a video explaining my love and passion for music as seen on the Bradley Show.  Also Click on the Link above to donate to Destination DMV.

National Black HIV/AIDS Awareness Day

It is National Black HIV/AIDS Awareness Day. Know your status, Get Tested, Seek Treatment.  It is important that we know also our partners status. Let's make an effort to educate all people concerning HIV/AIDS.

Do You Believe in Miracles?

First off I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas and an Awesome New Year.  Many of you all are familiar with the reason that most Christians celebrate Christmas: Jesus's Birth. Many of you know that it was an immaculate conception between Mary and the Holy Ghost ie not physical contact with a man.  This was considered a Christmas miracle.   Flip to Jesus growing older and healing leprosy, issues of blood, as well as blindness, raising the dead and other miracles.  It seems that would be His signature. With all of this in mind, I pose a question to you. Do you believe in miracles?   Personally, I do believe in miracles. I've seen miracles, I've experienced miracles, and I am a miracle.  Even with my diagnosis of HIV in 2012, I do believe God to be a healer. I've seen people who were blind regain their site. I've seen people who had cancer be healed. No I'm not lying. If He's healed back then why can't he do it now?   I am a firm believer that miracles h…

Rich Auburn (My HIV Story Continued)

On Thursday November 29, 2012, I dyed my hair rich auburn. Auburn to me is a reddish, brownish color. It is actually a tad bit lighter than my natural hair color, which is a dark brown color.  Well as you know November 29, 2012 was the day that I found that I was HIV Positive.
  Instead of being depressed I went home and pulled out the hair dye that had been staring me in the face. So set the timer on my phone, opened the hair dye box, and I proceeded to apply the hair coloring.
  At the time, I was living with my dearest uncle. He asked me "Why Did You Dye Your Hair." I replied "I wanted a different look."
It was different look that I kept until August 2013. I chopped my hair for my sisters wedding and preparation to meet my birth mom. Well a year later to date on Friday, November 29, 2013, I dyed, my hair again.  To me this color symbolizes my strength and me embracing what some may deem a fatal sentence, into a new beginning of life for me. Although It's …

What to Write: Single Life and Holidays

Well, It's been a hectic, yet fun few days for me. Thanksgiving was great and the weekend was fun. Here I am trying to figure out what to write.  So many thoughts come to my mind. So many flashes and so many ideas.  Especially with the holidays approaching and with me moving next year, I'm trying to relax and not stress.
  I could also write about how, This holiday is different for me because it will be my first in 3 years that I've not lived at home with my family.  It's different being an adult.  I always dreamed that I would be able to buy everyone presents, but however reality is showing me that with the bills that I have I'm sort of limited, but I'm okay with that. As long as I'm with family and have a great meal I'm okay.
  I could also write about how I'm trying to pretend that I'm okay with being single, but I really do hope that I one day find that perfect mate. This past weekend my friends berated me on how I am afraid of relations…



Living with HIV: One Year Later

It's amazing how fast a year goes by.  Today my mind goes back to the day that I found out that I was HIV positive.  I'll never forget it.   It was the week after Thanksgiving 2012. I had been preparing myself and clearing my schedule to go for a routine HIV/AIDS test.  I also chose to get tested for other Sexual Transmitted Infections/Diseases as well. I had called a local department that offered free testing and got my appointment.    Previous results which was in June 2012 read negative, so I felt pretty confident that this test would be negative as well.  The test provider went through a quiz with me and also an educational session which is quite normal and apart of the testing center's routine when providing an HIV/AIDS test.     Then came the hurdle...The Test!!! I took the test via the OraQuick oral HIV test.  We waited for about twenty minutes.  The test provider came to me with a pleasant, yet concerned attitude. She stated, "Musique, your test came back p…

@Trav_WORDSMITH Let's Talk: World AIDS Day 2013

December 1, 2013 is World AIDS Day.  Trav, the Wordsmith, lends his voice to the prevention and awareness of the HIV/AIDS pandemic.  The message is very up lifting. Travis, warns us to protect ourselves and encourages us that we will make it.  Even if you're negative, get tested and protect yourself even more. If you're positive, seek treatment. Check out his video below,

Pat Robertson Blames the Gay Community for AIDS

Knowing is Sexy


Living with HIV: 8 Months Later

Many of you know what HIV is.  HIV is a lentivirus (slowly replicating retrovirus) that causes acquired immunodeficiency syndrome (AIDS), if not treated.  With recent advancements in technology and medicine, many people are living healthy lives and are productive citizens.  HIV does not discriminate nor does it have anyone's name attached to it. It can affect anyone.
  November 29th, 2012 proved a pivotal point in my life as I was diagnosed with HIV.  That day was life changing for me. Granted I have dated those who have HIV and have friends who have HIV and I've even had those close to my heart die of AIDS related issues, but to have actually contracted it completely changed me.  I refuse to look at it as a negative event in my life.
  I admit that I did not use wisdom during certain activities and also the person whom I contracted it from could've known and lied or they may not have known their status. Nevertheless it is in my life, but it doesn't have my life.

@LexiTV HIV Awareness

Hello Everyone!!! You all know my girl, Lexi. She is a Phenomenal singer and a comedienne.  Recently she did an interview withFelix and Paula Sirls. The Sirls are HIV/AIDS awareness and prevention activists and counselors. They themselves are HIV positive. This has touched me greatly because it hits home.    In this interview, Lexi deals with the Black Church, The stigma with the Church and HIV, the Black Community and HIV, and the church's fear of teaching about HIV/AIDS.  Remember, God loves everyone. This interview may not be for you.  Get into below!!!!
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