Letting it Go

Last night, I had a deep conversation with my friend, Senor Paco.  He and I were talking about some major issues that have been affecting my life.  Some of it was family and some of it was old hurt that I thought I had dealt with.  Well I guess I've partially dealt with it.
  Sometimes I ask myself, how should I deal with the hurt from the church, how can I move on from being defensive about everything?  These are serious things.  As of last night, I've been on a new thing and I've been on a new tangent. I'm getting my life back and I'm doing it so I can live, breathe, and be free.  I'm also to the point with dear old uncle, that I'm just gonna do as I've said and done before, "press ignore to the monkey."
  He and I recently got into it over some skinny jeans.  He told me that I looked like a woman and I simply said that I was an adult.  What's so bad about it is that one of my mentors was on the phone and he heard it.  He was very ups…

Life as I Know It

Over the last couple of days, I've been made to smile and I've been made angry over simple silly stuff. However, I am over looking a lot of things.
  I am purposefully overlooking things, because I have a life to live and I refuse to let anyone cause me to miss out on anything.  This past Sunday was a big day for me because I've opened up some new doors and thank God for opening them for me.  I began a new chapter in the religious sector.
  Life as I know it is looking up for me.  I want to thank you all for the love and support that you've shown this blog.
Life as I know it, is getting better than expected,

Decisions and Dating

Well many of you know my dating history; men, women, break ups, cut buddies, and one night stands. After going on a few dates, being stood up, being ignored, and being lied to, I've decided to back away from trying to find that perfect mate. Sometimes when you search and search and search, you often look too hard and you frustrate yourself. I am utterly frustrated. I'm tired of being let down, told that I'm too feminine, that I'm too out there. I'm tired of just being asked for sex and used for a quick nut. When is my time coming? Soon!!! I've got a lot to focus on. As I stated in an earlier post, I am okay with being single. I really am. I kind of don't have a choice but to be okay with being single. The more I look for what I want: happily gay man, established, not ashamed of himself, accepts me flaws, fem, and all, the more I get frustrated. Being Gay is hard. It's so many stigmas, stereotypes, self hatred and a number of other p…

Sitting on the Toilet

On this great Hump Day, as I sit on the toilet, I've come to realize that I haven't been blogging as much as I should or need to.  I've chimed in periodically and have did what I could to keep you all up to date with life and the other crap.  However, as I sit on this toilet, I am writing to you.
  Alot has been going on and my life has been busy and I've been a little under the weather. However, I am doing much better.  I am thankful for some days of rest and much needed sleep.  I have a full schedule now, but I'm not complaining.  It's keeping me out of trouble.  However, next month is VACATION TIME FOR ME!!!! I intend on having some good fun.  Well I'm out,

Love is Love


Single and Okay

Hey Everyone,
 I pray all is well. Things are well with me. I'm just getting ready to meet a friend as I write this.  Over the last week, I've come to terms with the fact that I'm single and the fact that people are always wondering why my relationships don't last.  I'm not really worried about it, however, I am thankful that I am single.  I am able to have my fun and do what I want without worrying about my partner.
   Don't get me wrong, it would be nice to have someone, but not right now.  I have too many things to focus on right now.  I'm going to new heights in my music career and my walk with God.  Therefore I'm focusing on me.  I don't need someone to distract me.  I'm single and I'm okay with it.
  Yes I want that tall and sexy, but right now it can wait.  Just because people want with me doesn't mean I need to be with someone.  I'm okay with it.

I Got Stood Up!!!

Child, I got stood up!!!  That's right, I got stood the hell up!!!
  A nice potential suitor and I had made plans to meet up at around 8pm.  However, that changed due to somethings that happened on his end.  Then the movie that we wanted to see had a later play time which was at like 10pm.  Me and PS did talk on the phone, however,  after texting him a few times and calling, I quickly realized, that I had been stood up.
  The sad part was that the PS had talked up so much good game for himself, that I thought surely this would be worth it.  Neither of us will know, because I was stood up.  Not even a phone call or an apology.  I even called to make sure PS was alright.  I guess after our phone conversation, the PS was no longer interested.  It's okay though. There are other fish in the see.
   This isn't the first time I've been stood up and probably won't be the last.  I don't know if it was due to my bubbly personality or the fact that I'm a little bit…