Here lately, I've been suffering from baby fever. I've been imagining how my life would be if I had a child or children. I see many of my peers get married and start families, and I often wonder what has kept me from getting married and starting a family.
Well for starters, I wanted to find myself before settling down, I wanted to make sure I am financially stable, and I also wanted to make sure that I am ready for kids and marriage. So far, I've found myself and getting financially stable. I just need the marriage and kids (Smile).
Everyone has complimented me whenever I've taken care of my God children, neices, and nephews, that I would make a good father. I've also been honored as an honorary father by various organizations that I'm affiliated due to me teaching youth and instilling morals into young people and just being a parental figure in some people's life and even encouraging other people to become more stable and mature.
Although, I do not have any biological children of my own, the parental instinct comes out. It happens sometimes with my friends, with the youth that I mentor, and other youth that look up to me.
It's all fine and dandy to have "play children," or "God children," but it would be nice to have my own kids. One major setback however, is my HIV status. With me being positive, if I were to artificially inseminate or impregnate, it would be very risky. Granted the mother would be on a treatment to prevent or reduce the risk of passing HIV to her and the child, I have backed down on planning a journey in parenthood. However, more than likely I will adopt. Even if I was about to have biological children, I would still adopt or become a foster parent, and a darn good one at that!!! I want to be able to help someone or a child who has been put in the system or kicked out for whatever reason. I want to also care for children who are stuck in a crazy situation. I would make a great parent.