Thursday, December 5, 2013
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Many of you know that the Clark Sisters are my favorite female group of all time!!! They can sing anything and minister God's word. Well In preparation for the Christmas season they've released "The Clark Sisters' Family Christmas." There hit "Celebration," gives us the reason why we celebrate this great day of love. Also Mary J. Blige features the Clark Sisters on her arrangement of "The First the Noel," from her album "A Mary Christmas." Get into the songs below. They both tell stories of that First Noel, the Night Jesus was Born.
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
I could also write about how, This holiday is different for me because it will be my first in 3 years that I've not lived at home with my family. It's different being an adult. I always dreamed that I would be able to buy everyone presents, but however reality is showing me that with the bills that I have I'm sort of limited, but I'm okay with that. As long as I'm with family and have a great meal I'm okay.
I could also write about how I'm trying to pretend that I'm okay with being single, but I really do hope that I one day find that perfect mate. This past weekend my friends berated me on how I am afraid of relationship. I told them that I hadn't been on an actual date in such a long time because I haven't had the time. Much to my chagrin, they told me that I do have time, but that I don't make time to avoid getting to know someone.
Sadly to say, they are right. I've avoided dating due to me being a feminine Black Gay man in the South, HIV Positive, and a Christian leader. Yeah sounds crazy doesn't it. However, I've ran into some guys who've taken an interest, but I'm not sure I'm ready for that step especially with Destination DMV being on deck. I don't want to start something here and have to relocate not to mention that it may complicate things.
So I guess my fear of relationship is justified. I have so much that I'm planning to do that I don't want to pull someone else down into my plans especially when they are already established. It's neither here nor there.
I know I'll find that right mate for me someday. Let's hope it is before I'm 30. LOL Well I guess I did find something to write about,
Monday, December 2, 2013
What can I say about the legendary Sylvester James? This man is a musical legend. Even though he's no longer with us on this side, he still lives on in his music. This past weekend as I've relaxed at home, I've been listening to Sylvester's music.
I've been really stuck on Sylvester's cover of Stevie Wonders "Living for the City." This song is a great hit about life and surviving in your surroundings. I love Sylvester's version especially with the choir in the background. Living for the City is from Sylvester's album, "Mutual Attraction." Get into the video below.
Sunday, December 1, 2013
Saturday, November 30, 2013
It's amazing how fast a year goes by. Today my mind goes back to the day that I found out that I was HIV positive. I'll never forget it.
It was the week after Thanksgiving 2012. I had been preparing myself and clearing my schedule to go for a routine HIV/AIDS test. I also chose to get tested for other Sexual Transmitted Infections/Diseases as well. I had called a local department that offered free testing and got my appointment.
Previous results which was in June 2012 read negative, so I felt pretty confident that this test would be negative as well. The test provider went through a quiz with me and also an educational session which is quite normal and apart of the testing center's routine when providing an HIV/AIDS test.
Then came the hurdle...The Test!!! I took the test via the OraQuick oral HIV test. We waited for about twenty minutes. The test provider came to me with a pleasant, yet concerned attitude. She stated, "Musique, your test came back positive."
I was at a loss for words. All I could was pray within myself. I was surprisingly calm.
The testing instructor talked with me making sure that I wasn't suicidal or homicidal and making sure that I was okay. My reply was "I just want to go home and eat the leftovers from last night."
However, once I got home, I called my Godmother and Best friend, Senor Paco. I told them my plight and I began to apologize. They both asked "What are you apologizing for."
I felt that I had let myself down and everyone around me. Months later I told my mother and father. Thanks be to God I have their support and unchanging love. However, Mother dearest loves throwing up the fact that I am a homosexual and that God is punishing me. That's another story for another day.
Through these 365 days, living with HIV has had its ups and downs. I've been rejected in the dating scene, I've battled depression due to the stigmas and ignorance of living in the South and trying to have a boo. However, I am proud to say that I am undetectable and on a medicinal regimen. Staying on top of your health is important and keeping up with your medication schedule is important. Seeking treatment and STAYING IN TREATMENT IS VITAL AS WELL!!!!
Know your status and Get tested. If you are positive get treatment, protect yourself, and others. If I can make it, then you can too.
Friday, November 29, 2013
Trav, the Wordsmith, lends his voice to the prevention and awareness of the HIV/AIDS pandemic. The message is very up lifting. Travis, warns us to protect ourselves and encourages us that we will make it. Even if you're negative, get tested and protect yourself even more. If you're positive, seek treatment. Check out his video below,